Tuesday, November 8, 2016

I'm making films, now.

I have the election data on another tab, but it's making me sick to my stomach, so I need to distract myself.

Instead of blogging all the time, I decided to start VLOGging now.
You can check out my YouTube channel here

The whole reason why I decided to do this in the fist place is because Amazon changed their Terms of Service, so Top Amazon Reviewers had a week or two without hearing very much about receiving free items any longer. A few companies tried to loop hole: "Do you have a YouTube channel?"

At first, I didn't want to do this. I don't like taking pictures of myself, and I normally run away whenever anyone pulls out a camera.

Then, I got a new camera. I needed one for my online store anyway. (The quality of the pictures are SO much better, it's amazing, and it will help my productivity) but it also gave me a chance to start making videos.

I always thought my life was not interesting enough to record, but I realized that I do not have a typical lifestyle that everyone lives. It's not "normal". It's something that a lot of people do not understand, and I want people to understand. I'm tired of feeling singled out and isolated. I am happy with who I am, and I am happy with the life I chose. So I am going to enjoy it, and share it.

I will also be doing product reviews as they come along. I just don't want to create commercials all the time. Eventually, I even want to make a short film...If only for fun. We'll see. :)

Thursday, October 13, 2016

Past, Present, Future

I decided to take down the entries on this blog. It was never a very cohesive or successful. There is nothing wrong with having a personal blog, but if anything, it became a temptation to vent or try to connect. It's scary to put your real thoughts and feelings out there, and I would rather keep that all close.

Life seems to go by in chapters, and a big cluster of life events happened for me around 3 years ago. When I live in the moment, life feels like progress happens very slowly, but when I look back to only 3 years ago, I can see how dramatically things have changed. I have changed as a person. My circumstances changed for the better. I accomplished a lot, and in the grand scheme of life, 3 years is not actually a very long time.

I feel so much more content with my life than I did 3 years ago, but there is still so much I want to accomplish. People always say that hunger or drive to reach your goals is what keeps us going. If things were too easy, or if everything was handed to us, life might not seem as exciting.

I have very literal dreams about what my future is going to be like. They feel so real, so when I wake up, those dreams follow me around the rest of the day. The only thing is, my dreams have been wrong before. It's not a look into the future, but rather, a look into the hopes you bury deep.

I tell myself, "Things are getting better, but you cannot get everything you want all at one time." I look back on all of the things I accomplished. They all happened at different moments. They were celebrations. Moments when I felt like crying from happiness. Then, I imagined getting everything I always wanted at once. It would feel like, "Oh. Okay. Now what?"

So, I'm excited to see what life brings.